my discipline is there, my gumption is not

mal, that title is for you.

i've been fighting the barnyard flu for the last week. Besides the guttural hacking, the chills, the blinding headache, and the dry and raw surfaces of your nose and throat that as you breathe have even dryer air rushing over them, being sick isn't as awful as it could be.

I read an entire book, I listened to three sermons, and I slept. and slept. and slept and slept.

note: the length and depth of my post directly reflects the excitement in my life in the last week.

One more thing though. I've concluded that my favorite commercial is the membership awards points from AMEX card where they find a smiley face in EVERTHING. i love that. LOVE LOVE that. :)

WHOA! maybe i'm a newb, but i did NOT want to see that!

So I'm hunkering down to diligently write another blog, right on schedule, when I think to myself, "there is a 'next blog' link?" I clicked it.

Porn. In ... Russian???

Thoughts that crossed my mind:
Maybe I titled my blog accidentally suggestively, "my verbal boobles?"
What poor women got wrapped up in thinking that portraying their bodies this way won't dehumanize them?
Is my blog in alphabetical order, among every existing blog language? Is there a universal alphabetizing system that exists on line? What Russian letter comes after 'M'?!
How many fantastic gender focused papers could I write based from the VERY FIRST PHOTO?
Is my photograph with me smiling in it categorized as erotic and therefore my blog has been included in this category? IS there a "porn-blog" category? (you can clearly see here that my panic is increasing...)
And honestly, will that blog page always be located next to mine, as if we share the front and back of one page in this massive internet book?

Guys, I don't like that one click away I have Russian written on the page. JUST KIDDING.
Guys, I don't like that one click away I have women being portrayed as pleasure machines and blow-up dolls. Seriously. Raunch.

But it's a reality.

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AAAAAAAnnyway, the original reason I wanted to write today was to share about my summer experiences and self-discovery... however you'll just have to have patience. There are more dire tasks at hand: I must go claw my eyes out, douse them in lye, and regain a bit of innocence.

goodnight.

title subject to change

welcome to my blog.
but i'm tired and going to bed now that I've picked a title and a template.
feel free to stay as long as you like. show yourselves out.